Would ya’ll
continue to pray for my Dad. I told you he came down Wednesday to visit. He
still isn’t well. He has taken off two weeks from the church. He thought he
could rest and recoup here as well as at home maybe better since he wouldn’t be
tempted to work if he’s not at home. Well he hasn’t felt well since he’s been
here and this morning he called (from my brother’s house) to say he was not
doing well at all and was heading back to Missouri as soon as he got off the
phone. He’s really sick to leave us earlier than he planned. I was very
concerned about him and began praying as soon as our call ended. I talked to my
brother later and he said Dad had been up at least four times last night going
to the bathroom. I’m concerned about him being well enough to travel back home.
He did call me about 30 miles out of
I didn’t do
much today. It was really nice to not have to do anything. Did go visit my cell
member Sherri who is in the nursing home for her foot. She’s doing really well.
Took Kaidence, (Vanessa & Keannon’s dog). As usual I’m babysitting the dog.
I don’t really mind. But I’m afraid that she’s going to think of me being her
owner more than them! Sherri really enjoyed seeing her and it made her day.
Vanessa went to her first market at the Apparel Mart in
Excerpt from
my journal April 1999
Daddy,
I have such a hard time focusing on you. How do I do that? I get distracted so
easily. I think I’m focusing on you then before I know it I’m thinking about
anything but you! This is frustrating me! I want so much to please you. I want
so much to further your kingdom, to bring glory to your name. What are You
doing? Am I in a “waiting mode”?
This
is my prayer Father. I want to experience You. I know there’s more. I want
more. I’ve got to have more of You!
That’s
the heart I want is the one who diligently seeks after Me. You are where I want
you. Quit striving My Child. Quit trying to make it happen. You can do nothing
to speed it up or slow it down. It is happening as I have planned as I have
ordained it before the foundations of the earth. You waste so much time
fretting about your relationship with Me. Relax. Get your focus off yourself,
off our relationship. Focus on Me. You focus on Me by recounting My attributes,
My character, who I AM, on the things I have done. Yes, your attention span is
short but I’m training it. At least you are becoming more aware when you lose
focus. Don’t lose heart. Do not be discouraged. You are making progress.
Lighten up. Just be yourself. Quit looking at the law. Look to Me. Freedom is
scary when you’ve walked in bondage so long. It’s really okay to make a
mistake. It’s really okay to fail. Come to Me quickly. Come to My throne of
grace quickly. Come eat of the feast of forgiveness and mercy.
Forgetting what is behind and
straining toward what is ahead, press on toward the goal to win the prize for
which God has called you heavenward in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 3:13-14 NIV)
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