Monday, June 29, 2009

TRUST



A five letter word although small packs a very powerful punch in its meaning. If you’re honest everyone has “trust” issues and that is because we have hoped or believed in people who are not perfect and make mistakes. Then we compare God to people and mistrust Him who has never given any of us any reason to not trust Him and more times than not proved His trustworthiness even when He didn’t have to.

Over the last couple of years God has been relentless in revealing my lack of trust in Him and lovingly pursuing and encouraging me to “let go”. 2007 was a very difficult year for me: emotionally, physically, and spiritually. Those of you who have been with me that long will remember I had two horses die within 2 months of each other. One of which was my personal mount and friend. (He is the horse I am on in the profile pic.) I developed a blood clot in my leg that year. We almost lost our oldest dog Zorro. We learned that Doyle’s oldest brother was in need of a liver transplant. My daughter was going through very difficult times as well and I felt like God was very far away from me.

Things improved in 2008. The future was looking bright once again and then came 2009 when our daughter who has a good head on her shoulders showed us her humanness. In March she totaled her truck and was arrested for a DWI. I was so thankful that she didn’t get hurt or hurt anyone else! Doyle & I had been praying that Vanessa would return to following after the Lord instead of living life her own way. I sure didn’t expect this! I asked the Lord if it was possible to let this pass but if not than I wanted His will to be done not mine. That sounds like it was easy but it wasn’t. I so wanted to rescue her but I couldn’t from this.

God showed His grace, mercy and favor to Vanessa. The County Attorney along with his investigative team decided that they would not take her case to court! I couldn’t believe it! Ya God! She isn’t out of the woods yet as DPS still has her license. For now she has a pink slip that allows her to drive until she gets a hearing with the State of Texas. She just received a letter last week setting her court date for July 8th. God’s favor continued with the insurance company who paid more than we were expecting!

Things were looking up again when Vanessa dropped another bombshell. May 13th, three days after Mother’s Day Vanessa told us we’re going to be grandparents. This one pretty much took the wind out of my sails. I love my daughter and I do want to be a grandmother but I didn’t want it to happen this way. I spent a few weeks crying out to God and very close friends. Dealing with anger and despair. I’ve worked through most of that now and have found myself beginning to think about scrapbook stuff and how different my life will be. I told several of my friends that now I’ll have more baby pics than dog pics! Vanessa is do January 6th. She and I are kind of hoping that the baby will be born before the new year but we’ll see.

A friend of mine suggested a CD called Those Who Dream by Kristine Mueller. I couldn’t get past the very first song called “Trust”. I have finally listened and continue to listen to the entire CD but the first song has become “my song” for this season in my life and has been a great comfort to me.

It’s the sweetest thing to trust You
Just to know, You got everything under control
It’s the sweetest thing to trust You
Just to know you got everything

You are making me a mountain
Making me a mountain
That can not be shaken
You are making me a mountain
Making me a mountain
That can not be moved

High up on a rock looking out at the horizon
Watching as the storm rolls in
Wondering if my heart will survive it
As the waves crash all around me
And I can’t remember what it feels like to be free

You are making me a mountain
Making me a mountain
That can not be shaken
You are making me a mountain
Making me a mountain
That can not be moved

You say “I’ve got you My baby, Oh I’ve got you
Its quite the mess you’re in
but it’s nothing love can’t fix
So sit here upon my shoulders
And watch as it all unwinds”

You are making me a mountain
Making me a mountain
That can not be shaken
You are making me a mountain
Making me a mountain
That can not be moved

God is making me a mountain that nothing will shake or move. I am learning that trusting Him is the sweetest thing. Just knowing He really does have everything under control.

Have a good one!

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Latest Project

My niece Destiny had a birthday on Thursday. I had been thinking about doing a little album for her of the softball pics I had taken of the last few games I watched. I couldn't make up my mind. Finally on Tuesday (no pressure) I decided I was going to do it. I purchased what I needed and got started. I worked feverishly on it and got it finished while at the store on Thursday. This is the photo standing on a table. If you look close you can see the word "Team". The album I used was a "Bo Bunny Word chipboard album".




This view is a bit easier to see the word "Team. I had so many pics that I cut three more pieces of chipboard and inserted those in between the letters.



I'll have to admit I was pretty pleased with my results!







Inside the front cover....pages 1&2. The very first picture is the back of a t-shirt worn by one of the parents with all the players numbers and names. Pretty cool huh?!











Pages 3&4. Destiny plays shortstop.










Pages 5&6












Pages 7&8











Pages 9&10













Pages 11&12








The back.

I was going to take it to her but she had a game the night of her birthday. A double header that started at 6PM. I worked at the store until 6. So I came up with another plan. I asked Mom if she would mind dropping it off on her way to work on Friday. She drives within 4 miles of their house. She said she would. I didn't hear anything and wondered if she even knew it was at the house so I sent her a text and asked if she got it. She replied and said "Yes and it's amazing! Thank you!" That's all I needed!I plan to do another very similar for her sister whose birthday is next month. Hope she likes hers too!


Have a good one!